Praying for others
Praying for me

Praying for direction
Praying to HEAR
Praying for obedience to go in whatever direction


Praying…..a day of humble….fearful yet bold prayers….

Why can't I live like this lamb....with my head in Your hands...trusting.

Because in my head if I've got my head in Your hands my backside is totally unprotected.

I am so scared Father

The desire to flee ~ to escape~ must be stared down.

The desire to stay at your chest is it You or just me hiding?

Vulnerability

Trusting YOUR protection

waiting

Humble, honest replies

A sheep nothing more and nothing less

A sheep PROTECTED by the shepherd...

I am so frightened of being found out and yet yearning for there to be something worth finding.

The living in vulnerability with humble honesty, is hard. The sin I live in most and of course that seeds all the rest of sin in my life is 'self-protecting'.

Listen

in the silence is YOU
in the gray and dismal is YOU
in the loneliness is YOU
in the chaos is YOU
inthequiet is YOU
in the din is YOU
in the void is YOU
in EVERYTHING is YOU

So I read about people who go to church and about those who don't.....if they both love Jesus how are they THAT different??

Luke 9: 23-27 (msg) Then he told them what they could expect for themselves: "Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you? If any of you is embarrassed with me and the way I'm leading you, know that the Son of Man will be far more embarrassed with you when he arrives in all his splendor in company with the Father and the holy angels. This isn't, you realize, pie in the sky by and by. Some who have taken their stand right here are going to see it happen, see with their own eyes the kingdom of God."

Genesis 24: 21 Meanwhile, the man was gazing at her in silence, to know whether the LORD had made his journey successful or not.

Luke 8:22-25

Jesus Stills the Sea
Now on one of those days Jesus and His disciples got into a boat, and He said to them, "Let us go over to the other side of the lake." So they launched out.
23But as they were sailing along He fell asleep; and a fierce gale of wind descended on the lake, and they began to be swamped and to be in danger.
24They came to Jesus and woke Him up, saying, "Master, Master, we are perishing!" And He got up and rebuked the wind and the surging waves, and they stopped, and it became calm.
25And He said to them, "Where is your faith?" They were fearful and amazed, saying to one another, "Who then is this, that He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey Him?"

I am scared and lonely...full of doubts
Like a ship in ruthless seas I am drowning.

I see You at the shoreline waving me in ~ Guiding me ~ Pulling me HOME

I want to throw away my oars to cower in the bottom of the boat and yet everything in me keeps rowing and bailing and battling to stay afloat.

Am I to simply drop them, the oars, and watch them sink or float away??
Can I put them safely in the bottom of the boat....in case???

To STOP fighting and wrestling..
To not cower in the bottom....but with my eyes on the shore...count on Your protection.....