I sit and read opinions...and JUDGE them....
Fearful of course tto share my own....because then I would be judged as badly, as harshly as I judge
I read about addictions and know my own to be just as bad but perhaps less understood....and good Lord I MUST be understood.

You see my addiction won’t allow me to share my opinion.
Who knows what others might think
So I sit and read opinions….and judge them to be JUDGEMENTS.
I am such a hypocrite.

The ones who criticize the holidays….I could join in as well.
Commercialism rules……busyness pervades……
And what if……what if it’s all about those not knowing…..the holes…the gaping wounds that never heal because they don’t know???

Now in the ‘knowing’ , those of us that KNOW….we criticize…
In the ‘knowing’ we judge…..when in the ‘knowing’ He says LOVE…because ...because most simply ‘don’t know?’ and they THEY are HIS LOST SHEEP….

What does that even look like, you know…to live in the KNOWING…..
How do you ….

I KNOW that all I am to do is LOVE
And don’t

I know that the addictions to approval and affirmation drive me when I am to be driven by LOVE

Emergent
Missional
Denominational
Non-denominational
Lutheran, Catholic, Baptist, Pentecostal…..…….on and on and on

Where are the Christ Followers? Those who follow Him…those who love indiscriminately? Are they sprinkled in each division? Are they separated by wounds and hard hearts…..Are they alive in Christ and striving? Are they dead to sin and humbly waiting? Waiting for what? Why so many looking to LEAD and leaving none to follow?
Hey I’m admitting ….confessing….looking to be challenged and broke…..I want to be a Christ Follower but all I look for is men or women to lead me…when You are right here saying……follow ME…..Love others all others as better than yourself…..humbly serve….

So what now fellow seekers…..do you criticize? Do you judge? Who do you follow?

Somedays like this and truly I understand the feelings, the pain, the confusion and yet there are other days, other moments where you just KNOW you're captured....

Captured ------Natalie Grant

It must mean something

When I close my eyes

Visions of You come to me and flood my mind

It must mean something

When my heart is true

All that I can think about is You

(Chorus)Everywhere I go You find me

Even when I run

I'm captured I'm captured in You

Everywhere Your love surrounds me

I cannot escape I'm captured

I'm captured in You

It must mean something

When I'm standing still

Yours is the only voice I wanna hear

It must mean something

That I've come this far

Lifting up my hands and offering my heart

Everywhere I go You find me

Even when I run I'm captured

I'm captured in You

Everywhere Your love surrounds me

I cannot escape

I'm captured I'm captured

You are the sky

You are the sea

You are the air I wanna breathe

You're everywhere

Your love lasts forever

And if I fall You won't let go

You hold me when I can't hold on anymore

You reach out and rescue me

Everywhere I go You find me

Even when I run I'm captured

I'm captured in You

Everywhere Your love surrounds me

I cannot escapeI'm captured

I'm captured